No more.

I want to change. Please help me to.

Moses

I got to start writting!

I have to record the things I have done and see before I become old. This will be my temporary diary until I get a real one. Life is not easy man! I have no idea.

Mess clearing in progress

It's really really difficult!!! Taking things out, sorting things up, planning where to place them, choosing things to throw. It's really difficult. I guess it relates to the parable of the lost coin, whereby the lady cleans get whole house to found that one gold coin and when she found it she rejoices with her friends. I want to find my gold coin too!!

Good never fails

First of all, to be very honest, I am still kinda stuck in my spiritual journey -which I definitely feel bad about. But somehow, when I read the bible today, which seem kinda just like a dull book for quite awhile, my eyes were slightly opened. I was like "wow".

It's kinda obvious but recently I've been amazed by the readings that I've made. One really good one was Isaiah 7:9, "if you do not stand firm in your faith, you will not stand at all". It touched me, it was a very personal verse.

I've been a Christian for easily 18 years, but I've only just begin to see God's awesomeness. I started this journey of soul searching with a prayer for God to guide me, I promised that will pray, fast and do all types of things to draw closer to God but I ended up slacking off, sinning and literally rotting. But God never gave up on me.

Likewise, I should not give up on myself.

Stand or not stand at all

If you do not stand firm in your faith, you will not stand at all. Isaiah 7:9b.

lost?

I was pretty lost the past few days. I feel as if life is kinda pointless. To be frank, I have no goals, no ambitions, no targets , nothing. Thus, I sincerely made a prayer, Lord, give me a goal, give a vision, give me a purpose.

After the simple prayer, I turned to my short devotion. It was about Micah's priest being taken away and left with nothing. In another words, goals, purpose all these things in the end ends up an empty shell. Who do I look to? Who do I turn to? God. He's my purpose. He's my goal. What else is there? I am convinced.

Broken down, built up