Good never fails

First of all, to be very honest, I am still kinda stuck in my spiritual journey -which I definitely feel bad about. But somehow, when I read the bible today, which seem kinda just like a dull book for quite awhile, my eyes were slightly opened. I was like "wow".

It's kinda obvious but recently I've been amazed by the readings that I've made. One really good one was Isaiah 7:9, "if you do not stand firm in your faith, you will not stand at all". It touched me, it was a very personal verse.

I've been a Christian for easily 18 years, but I've only just begin to see God's awesomeness. I started this journey of soul searching with a prayer for God to guide me, I promised that will pray, fast and do all types of things to draw closer to God but I ended up slacking off, sinning and literally rotting. But God never gave up on me.

Likewise, I should not give up on myself.

Stand or not stand at all

If you do not stand firm in your faith, you will not stand at all. Isaiah 7:9b.

lost?

I was pretty lost the past few days. I feel as if life is kinda pointless. To be frank, I have no goals, no ambitions, no targets , nothing. Thus, I sincerely made a prayer, Lord, give me a goal, give a vision, give me a purpose.

After the simple prayer, I turned to my short devotion. It was about Micah's priest being taken away and left with nothing. In another words, goals, purpose all these things in the end ends up an empty shell. Who do I look to? Who do I turn to? God. He's my purpose. He's my goal. What else is there? I am convinced.

Broken down, built up

Becoming a man

Sounds cheesy.... But yes! I am officially 21.. Not Gannon say much but I really wanted to record my feelings and emotions on this 'special' day. It'll definitely be a rough yet fun day ahead. Rather, most of all I really wanna receive something from of this year. Gonna record every instance this day/week ;) God save the Mouses.. I just came tht up.. Maybe because i am drunk.. Goodnite!

Difficult..

What is difficult? How hard is hard? These questions bug me. Maybe that is why it would be a dream come through if I am able to really test how far can I go. Despite having such desire for a challenge in my life, I have never really done anything all out. I guess I am afraid of the success or failure. But just for once in my 21 years of life.. I wanna reach out my hands, stretch out my legs, shout at the top of my lungs, cry till my eyes dry up, run till my legs break off, lift till my muscles burst! ARGHHHH!! 

Year 3 sem 1 week 7.. I shall challenge you! I've raised the difficulty to hell mode by compiling all the assignments, involved in captain ball and... I will update the results of this challenge soon! 

Anyhow, it's been an eventful week. Learn lots of new stuff, met lots of new people. There was an incident that I particularly want to immortalize ( or until blogger shuts down) on the Internet. The first was about a car accident on 3rd of July 2013. It was a rare occurrence of rain in the morning, I was about to fetch Kharis for breakfast. Without looking in front, my car banged the car in front of me. There was a dent in his car. I, being afraid, parked my car and approached the owner who curiously did not look angry. I ran to him, asking of any one was hurt. He calmly replied, 'No'. Clearly being the one at fault I went on asking him is he rushing. Well, if he was, I wound gave him my phone number, if he wasn't, I guess We'll have to reach a mutual understanding. You can see a lot was running on my mind when I asked the question. Either it's becoming a trend or a consistent event in my life, everything was so simple? Well, that guy came to me, say its alright, went back into his car and drove away. Sounds familiar right? I was stunned! And shocked! And amazed! And in awe! And star stricken! 

Life.. Unpredictable isn't it :)

Till then.. The race goes on :)

Lowest point, but not giving up!

These few weeks had been a roller coaster journey. I have had many up and down moments, most probably due to anxiety as I was put in charged of the annual May semester CF Welcoming Night. I admit that I had not put in my best efforts in the organizing and planning of the event. Transportation, programs, budgets, refreshments, promo video, churches, registration, equipments and many more small details creeped up while I was living out my daily routine. I was so worried every single day. I told a lot of people that everything will be alright but I can't seem to find the peace.

To cut the story short, it was amazing. I can say without a doubt, God's hands were upon the event. If there was no intervention from God, everything will be messed up. Still today, 3 days after the event, I am blur of the the things that happened. Lacking of microphone, music stand, mic stand, amplifier, water dispenser, ice, bowl, lacking of cups. If God didn't helped me, who did? Thus, for the first time in my life I seriously thank God from the bottom of my heart. 

What is my response to that? Sadly, I have yet to change for the better. As I type out the words in this blog, I realized how amazing this God is. His love, His plan is just so overwhelming. Thus, I am also sorry I fell back to my old ways but I am not giving up!

Anyway, Aaron, Levi and Owen came to visit me during this week too. It was a very heart warming experience, just to meet up and catch up with the things going on in each others life. Thank God for them! :)

So what's next? :
1) McDonald's CHALLENGE 
2) One punch man CHALLENGE 
3) Bible CHALLENGE 

I'll just start with these 3 for this month. Hopefully I will update this blog more frequently. It's kinda cool how I get o reflect on the things that had happened. Hmmm...